Saturday, December 4, 2010

She's on Her Way Home...

Well, the kids are in the tub and Rebecca is on her way home. She emailed to tell me she's on her way to the LV airport. It's been an interesting last few days with her gone. I know there's the old cliche about absence making the heart grow fonder, but try absence with the letter I gave her before she left (below). There's nothing like having your wife roaming Sin City knowing that you've okayed her to have as much fun as she wants.

It's hard to explain the feeling I had while she was away. There's this churning ache I feel through out my body. It's something I haven't felt in a very long time. It reminds me a lot of when we were "long distance" with me across the country in school. Whenever I would fly home to see her, I would get this same feeling, like the ache won't stop until I hold her. It makes me feel alive. It makes me realize how unimportant the other things in my life are compared to her.

Speaking of work, I had a few fires to put out this week, so the distraction kept my mind off the her and her tantalizing emails. The first of which came after she had been out with L and they were hit on:

"We had a guy buy us a drink and I would say try to hit on us. Weird guy. Although I don't think I look like holly hunter and does L look like sharon stone?!"

another the next day.. after I asked her how the Sangria was..

"Cosmos were good too. Another good story for'll like this one. :)"

then last night as I was going to sleep, I checked my email and had this:

"Done from Tao. Another story..m"

I asked her for a hint, and she replied with this:

"26 year old from NY."

Needless to say, my curiosity is driving me crazy. She'll be home in about five and a half hours, so I might hear about it then. To be honest, I won't press her for the details right away. I'll just be happy to have her back in my arms. The rest of the story can be savored over time. I've been able to think about why this type of thing is so enjoyable for me and I think I have it figured out somewhat. I love her more than anything in the world, and she loves me. We have an amazing bond. What this time away from her does for me, is strip away all the extra layers of "life" that build up, exposing the most basic and primal feelings I have for her. It's raw and it's extraordinary. The knowledge that she's being pursued by other (younger) men has had me "stirring" all day. When she gets back she's in for a treat....


  1. If all it turns out to be is some light flirting, maybe a kiss or a having been groped, will that be enough for you?

  2. Funny you should ask. I have mixed feelings. I liked the thought of her being ogled and propositioned, but I'm not sure how I would do if she ever "fell" for another man. BIzarre, I know.