Warning: Downer Post... Shitty Sunday

Well, I was due for a bit of a shitty post, if for nothing else than to get some emotions off my chest. Yesterday was one of our less than stellar days. There were a few underlying factors, and we (our family) kind of limped through the day. I may have started things out poorly when I had made plans with Rebecca for after we out the kids to bed. I had "scheduled" another massage, this time it was to happen while she chatted online. The idea of her chatting to another man is a big turn-on for me, and not really for her, so I have to admit that I used the idea of a massage to bribe her into doing it again. After she agreed to it Friday night,I spent all day Saturday fantasizing about it. Unfortunately this time, we were both tired after a night out with the kids at the movies( Yogi Bear.. Don't go unless you have to). When we got home, we were going up to bed after the kids were asleep, and I discreetly asked if she wanted the laptop upstairs. She said no, and I took this as a "deals off". I shouldn't have let this get me down, as we were both tired, but it did, and I fell asleep in a bad mood.

I woke up in a better mood Sunday morning, but unfortunately maybe due to the bad vibes from the night before, Rebecca did not. She's not one to PMS, but occasionally, I can tell it gets her down. When she does let it get to her, she'll quickly and suddenly get fed up with things that need to be done around the house letting me know what has to be finished. The forecast for Sunday was a balmy -20 degrees, so we were all cooped up in at the house. I love our kids very much, but they can be a little incessant, especially when cooped up indoors. I can only imagine what it's like when she has "George" just around the corner, this Tuesday to be precise ( yes I know her schedule).

As a couple we tend to feed off each other's mood, so after she barked at the kids, I let it get to me and my patience ran thin as well. I was emotionally drained by the end of the day, and we were in bed by 9:30. I'm still feeling tired today.

I'm contemplating giving her some space on future potential PMS days. My thought is that if we're not together on those days, our impatience won't be amplified off of each other. I could take the kids out for the day, or even to my parents for the weekend if the timing worked. I don't want it to seem that this is some sort of punishment, but I have to say that I don't like the person I became, or felt I became yesterday. Our kids, although incessant with their needs are just kids.